It was and has been very easy for me to get complacent in recovery, and due to that it has caused an endless amount of pain and suffering in others and myself and has ended in relapse. I have been in recovery multiple times. Its a process of work that I put in to get spiritual relief, without doing so brings up resentment, fear…and in me a lot of anger. Multiple times I have put in the work and start to see changes in my life with family relations, employment, and most of all being okay with myself. Where I have fallen off before is hitting that certain point and stopping the work. Dishonesty slips out, I start doing the wrong thing, I slip away from my program and people in it with fear they might call me out. Inevitably I either relapse or end up in such a dark place feeling pain I have never felt before. I have taken so many opportunities for granted in recovery because of this. It has been a big part of my recovery this time to continue the work everyday. To do all the steps, and continue growing spiritually. The outcome of this has been more then I could of wished for.